2014 is turning out to be quite a ride. This must be the year when, in my old age, I have to decide what I really and truly want to be when I grow up. Focus, focus, focus! I keep telling myself that specially when I find myself illustrating one day then wanting to try out making a doll the next, then discovering a whole new way to do art two days after. Whenever I see a technique or style or craft that gets me all excited, I feel that I just have to try my hand at it.
It harks back to my childhood when I used to always take things apart to see how they worked. I inspected my dolls’ clothing to see how they were sewn and one of the first things I used to do whenever I had a new doll was to see if it had underpants. It might sound crazy but it was important to me that they weren’t painted on or skipped altogether just because the doll came in pants.
So yesterday, while I was working on my Butt In Chair entry for the day, this craziness I put myself in kept popping in my head. If you happen to follow me on Instagram (under my paperwitheverything profile), you’ll see that I ended up taking off just to get away from it all. I went to the mall, found that some things had changed since I’d been there, and then got myself a flourless chocolate cookie and coffee.
Yesterday was the last of the 3-day class with Kari Chapin on CreateLive. It was all about having a handmade business so most of the attendees were artists, designers, and crafters. I skipped the last day because of the need to get away and take stock of things. I needed to be where I wouldn’t pick up a pencil or fabric. I didn’t even bring my iPad so I wouldn’t start sketching.
Now this is not an easy thing for me to do given how my mind flits from one thing to another but sometimes when I’m in a different environment, I can actually focus. So I did.
In the end (and after I found myself in a part of Macy’s I’d never been to before where I walked away with a couple of baby clothes for my granddaughter, Sophie), it was all a matter of making the surface design, illustration, and writing work with one another. I couldn’t seem to walk away from any of them so I might as well put all them together to work for me.
I also had to face up to the fact that I needed a dependable income to support this endeavor and that I’d have to just squirrel away hours that I can dedicate to losing myself in all that can be magical and wonderful–at least to me. So I applied at retail stores. I’m not sure I’m even employable but well, a job means income. Maybe I can bring some magic in whatever work environment I wind up in. Whatever it is, it’s something to do while the right agent or publisher hasn’t yet discovered how fabulous I am.
I wrote that with a straight face too.
Meanwhile, my Butt In Chair entry will be a bit delayed today because of this post. Besides, yesterday’s entry was brewing in my story-telling lobe all day yesterday and resulted in this sketch over breakfast. He’s not the main character, though. Those are still just bits and pieces that haven’t resolved themselves just yet.